Alone With My Thoughts...

Don't you get one of those days where you get lost in your own thoughts.

- One thought leads to another ..

All your deepest thoughts gather around at the same time; about the past, future, present ..
Your mistakes you made repeatedly, all the lessons you had to learn the hard way, the consequences of your mistakes.
You think 'why did that happen to me?' 'why can't something go right in my life?'
They say good thing happen to those who've been waiting, well I've been waiting for years and years - why isn't anything good happening to me? why do I keep repeating my mistakes when I know they are mistakes and I am not supposed to repeat them?!

Then.. BlankOut ... you're not sure of what to think about but you carry on thinking and digging a deeper hole into your memories.

You say to yourself 'what if I did that differently or if I didn't do it at all...'

Sometimes your thoughts need to be expressed; wheather it's via actions or writting, maybe via talking to someone.. Otherwise they get locked behind bars and the more thoughts the crowdierthe cell gets and then they will all link together and end up escaping in a negative way.

For every mood you are in different genres of music helps you.. music helps us escape from this fuckery we live in.. There's always a song that links to how you are feeling or your situation and thats because its not only you who's going through whatever you are going through, there are others aroud you.. You just need to know who they are because everyone has fake friends, snakes and people who judge around them and they will NOT be the ones who help.. But that is the mistake alot of us have made , letting people like them into our lives.. I dont get it though.. If someone doesn't like someone why be fake? Go fuck about with your own life.. Evaporate yourself out of 'my' life, go do your own thing..

Lifes too short to please everyone around you, we're all different and we will never be liked by everyone.. Life goes on, if you don't like me go kick rocks... People come and go, what.. do you want me to cry because you dont like me :L LOL Jokeman!