First Young Love.

Imisshimsooomuch ; All the screen munches, pictures, and texts is all I've got left. I remember the good times we had together 'with him I could erase the world.  He made me so happy, he felt so perfect. He was someone I felt comfortable around, someone I could act silly and immature with.  He didn’t take everything so seriously and made me smile everytime.  We'd do stuff I wouldn’t do with no other boy; the ugly stuff girls are shy to do with boys yet me&him were such tramps around eachother. I miss him so muchhhh. 

Sometimes I wonder if it’s his company is what I miss or I actually love him;

- Either way I want him back in my life. 

I remember when he said 'imagine your name with my last name' when he said 'I Love You Nikki'.  I remember being on the phone all day and even if we had nothing to say we'd start talking nonsense, at night time hearing him breath was good enough, knowing he was there.  I remember he'd always call me 'his hoe', he named my phone 'fob-berry'.  He'd say he loves my love handles and how I’m beautiful.  I remember when he broke his wrist I went to visit him at the hospital, even took him to the toilet LOOOL.  Everytime I went to his house he'd tell me he missed me and he loves me, at first in the beginning we'd go shy on eachother, he'd even tell me he was going shy, even though he's a boy. He's so cuteee ...

Everytime he introduced me to someone he'd say 'that’s my girlfriend Nikki :D'.

He didn’t pressure me into anything; he made me feel so free and happy.  That’s what makes a perfect boyfriend; someone who shuts the whole world out.

Everyone says I deserve better, look at how sad he made me but I am/was convinced that he's good enough for me. I tried to be there but he pushed me away, he said it was for my benefit, he didn’t want to hurt me but by leaving me he made everything worse.  Why would he leave like this?  Now we aint together does he think about me? Does he want me back or has he got a new girl? There are times I actually shut him out and try to forget but I fail.

I've promised myself after this I won’t think about him like this again. 

The past is the past, it’s a lesson learnt, an experience experienced..

AC' </3